Friday, November 30

I have so many things going thru my mind right now... So much so to a point that everything is really pretty much jumbled up and I can't quite think chronologically. So whatever comes to mind first doesn't necessarily mean that it's of more importance...

Finals starts tomorrow and I am still hell enjoying myself as if tmr will never come. Same goes for my Lab Report due on Mon. Like seriously, I never learn from my lessons and all the 'No more procrastinating' promises I've made to myself are as good as those toilet paper flushed down the toilet bowl after doing big business.

I was thinking yesterday and today... No, I have always been thinking. I need to start knowing myself. I need to be me more. I have to stop pretending, stop acting, stop doing things I know will bring me no good and stop doing things that will hurt others, stop doing things that I know I will regret, I need to start asking myself who I really am, what I really want, and what I want people to like me for... I need to be Ai Li lah.

I want to go back to church, join YF and learn the Lord's word. I need the courage, but I'll do it this once. Pray for me?? Pls??!!

I had more to write but it all disappeared after... the paragraph above. So, I guess that's all for today's entry.

All the best for exams, people!

Thursday, November 29

Initially, I had the intention to blog about the whole Raja Muda thinge today (no wait, actually, I was referring to yesterday, considering it's already past 12 midnight) but I ended up having more to talk about today (ok, making it clear for the final and last time, when I use today for the rest of this post, I actually mean, the 28th of November) instead.

So yes, I felt rather proud of myself today cuz I actually finished 4 poster reviews without having to copy/paste-ing Ivy's or Mandy's. So, yeah, kinda big achievement considering I had to read thru all the photos of poster Mike had sent me which I can tell you, was quite an effort! But anyway, point is, I completed what I had to and I am happy.

Second, I kinda spent my time in college today rather efficiently. Did some studying, revision and some catching up with friends. Not to mention, the rm13.65 I splurged on a Carmel-by-the-sea from San Frans. I was like 10 mins too early for the student privilege thing whereby u get to buy the drinks for 1/2 the usual price but I just really couldn't be bothered to wait for the 10 mins to go by...

Then I returned call to Ray (skipper/owner of Quantum Racing) cuz I do not answer calls when in classes (most of the time)!! Anyway, he kinda 'invited' me to join him for next year's RLIR and Singapore Straits and I kinda 'agreed' based on impulse. Terus.... I put down the phone only I terus panic, sh*t, if I go means for the 3/4 of Jan next year, I won't be around leh!!! How?! Next year no joke edi leh, second year edi!! How?!

While I continue to ponder upon the issue above, Anthro 101 class was hm.. I would say, interesting lah. However, our supposedly highest score for presentation today was crushed by the group who presented today... *sighs* but anyhow, their presentation was good lah, so I guess they deserved it. And and, I dunno... but class today was just very 'uplifting', with BW's slipper 'flying off' his foot twice and all the lecturer's super bombastic choice of words which he calls normal English.

And then, very amazingly, Heng decided to pick me up from college. So... yeah, went to Bangsar Baru to get something done, something u shud notice when u see me next, something that costs me rm55!! And because Heng couldn't find car park, he went home after dropping me off and when I was done with my something, I walked home. WALKED home.

Then, I got home all sweaty and mum said Wes had a church camp performance tonight and asked if I wanted to go, so usually when this sorta questions is being asked, u kinda know ur answer shud be a 'yes', though it was a question. So, showered and went out for Wes's thinge. I have to say, kids can be quite the adorable lah sometimes... So innocent I tell you. And the smile I had on my face this time was a hundred percent genuine, and I didn't regret one bit for saying 'yes' to the answer-yes-question.

Then after the whole performance thing, we went to Devi's for dinner. Note: It was 10 plus nearing 11pm by the time we got there. So I said, I won't eat, I'll have a drink. Another note: I have been having this minor gastric attacks since I got back from Raja Muda and when I told mum I was having a slight gastric before leaving the house earlier, she made me swallow 9 tablets!! 9, 9, 9 freakin tablets ok!! Crazy. Anyway, long story short, I ended up eating anyway. How to resist mutton satay with peanut sauce u tell me?!

So, got home, turn on lappie cuz I promised Mandy I'll drop by her blog when I get home. And I did a lot more than reading her blog, I read everyone's blog... OMGWTFBBQ (Boon Woei, 2007). Citations seem to be the latest trend of Psych majors in their bloggies lately. Anyway, again long story short, after reading everyone's blog, I kinda had a mixed feeling of every possible emotion. Not a bad thing I would say, but just, kawan-kawans who are emo-ing must cheer up, kawan-kawans who are stressed must de-stress, kawan-kawans who are having exams must gambateh neh, kawan-kawans who are happy must of course terus happy lah.

And so, this ends my post of the yesterday of today.

senyumlahkawankawans!

Tuesday, November 27

Short entry.

I didn't exactly ace my presentation but I think it was fairly good lah... Hee~
I've got so many things to do that I don't know which to begin with...
My chatbox doesn't seem to be working at current time...
I know I need(want) a trim, but... where can I get a cheap and chic one?!
I so need to pack up my closet and luggage so that I stop living out of my luggage...
My ****** is pretty much dysfunctional at the moment, pray that things get better soon...
Caffeine addiction since I got back, bad.
Yes lah, Malaysia's Year End Sale... 1 December!! Wohoo~

Timetostudy,seriously.

Monday, November 26

I have almost nil motivation to post today but heck, just to let u people know that this blog ain't dead just yet.

And yes, I have been in a 'on-off' foul mood, and I still am. Hence, notice the choice of words and tone used. Blame it on PMS lah, and actually a whole load of other shit but... don't bother.

Anyway, point is. I am back safely, thank God. Had great times, not so great times, and again, a whole lot of other things lah. I'll consider blogging about it when I am free-er.

Note: Final is/starts this Sat.

2nd note: I'm screwed.

3rd note: MC100 presentation tmr.

4th note: I'm double screwed.

Just to compensate for my very negative post, here are some photos.
p/s: Heng's uploaded them on his Facebook, apparently, I don't have time to do that just yet.


Ciaoz!

Wednesday, November 14

Bohoo~ Kiasu spirit back once again...! No lah, actually it's because my line is lagging hence causing all my drama loadings to lag too. So since it's taking me years to buffer 'The Vineyard Man' on Winamp, I thought I'd do something more 'beneficial' instead.

I missed the 106 tut I was supposed to attend today in order to replace the one I'll be missing on Fri. Argh!! But it really wasn't my fault lah, the stupid Rapid KL bus never showed up... I was waiting and waiting and waiting but it never showed up. And I even got bitten by some green-ish looking fly, yuck! It was pain ok!! So, I walked back home and decided to rot at home instead.

Feeling very bad cuz I kinda already told Steph that I'll be going for today's class and all, and at the end, I never showed up... Blaming the stupid bus service only takes away 20% of the total guilt.

If I knew I'll be missing the Tut then I would've planned to go out... if I knew lah. I so wanna go shopping... It's just one of those sudden urge to go spend money, not that I have a lot to spend, but I feel like buying some new stuff lah... Now that it's raining, I feel like skipping my Anthro class too... Since I got no transport and it's only a presentation today, go shopping terus lah, *picks up the phone* calls mom.

But no, Kevin just offered to pick me up. Aiyah, go class only lah.

And since this wasn't meant to be a meaningful post to begin with, I hereby would like to announce that 'Save the Last Dance for Me' is like the best k-drama I've seen so far, most top on my fav's list, beats a whole lot of other dramas... Why, because the soundtrack is just oh-so-so-so nice!! Seriously.

Listen to this!


Tuesday, November 13

Anyway, my decision: I'll go! On the IRC 1 boat. Time to learn more, meet new people and most importantly, have lotsa fun...! Yahoo!

Port Klang - Pangkor - Penang - Langkawi... Wohoo! Time to tahan pee, stay up the whole night and kena tiup angin sejuk sejuk at night and kena panas panas during the day. Pray for clear weather and safe journey, no pirate attacks, no sinking ships/boats, perhaps pray for no rain/storm too or it can get quite messy and cold. Sighs, pray also that everything will go well and that we (Heng & I) will return safely. Since it's impossible to be injury-free, pray that there won't be any serious injuries, minor ones like a bruise or so is fine. Amen.

Hm... Now that's said and done, I'm getting kinda worried about my MC100 presentation too (because Sharon's having the same problem, hence the 'too'). I kinda didn't mean what I said in my memo report, which states that I wanna be a coach, hell no. I couldn't think of anything else to write then, but now that I have to present about it?! I don't feel good about this at all. Not at all.

You know the 'not truth so no confidence' philosophy? Yeah, even if you don't, I think it pretty much speaks for itself anyway... How to present on a topic whereby I will practically be lying the whole way?! Adding salt to the cut, I have no clue what I would do after graduation... MmmMmm.....

Option 1: Stay in college for the rest of my life?
No freakin way.
Option 2: Marry rich man?
Can consider, but who on Earth got so lucky only can one.
Option 3: See how lah...
Looks like the only possible option. But isn't that not an option to begin with?! It's exactly what I am doing now.

Don't care lah, 'see step walk step' lah!

Went to TTDI Secret Recipe after 106 with Mandy, Boon Woei, Kevin and Mike (now, that just saved me another 14 alphabets!!). Sharks lah now, extra calories to burn. That aside, I realized that I actually have a great bunch of college friends, though when tried counting, I could use the very sufficient 10 fingers I have... Nevertheless, you guys are great, the best!! Touched or not?! *smiles*

Was randomly going thru YouTube yesterday, came across Ashley Tisdale's music video, she's one pretty blonde but but but... why?! Lindsay Lohan, Hilary Duff, the Olsen twins... Just why do they have to resort to becoming like 'Britney' lah?! No offence lah yah Britney fans, but I used to love Britney during her 'Baby One More Time' and 'Stronger' days... but why?! Why turn to drugs, why all the very kurang kain's dances/outfits/fashion sense, why cigarettes, why scandals and all?! I mean, they're all my all time favourite Disney celebrities u know!! Very saddening.

Ate too much today lah, stomach very the bloated. Need to go do some DDRing. One last thing before I end this post...

Lately, I have been spotting a lot of people chopping of their long locks for shorter, trendier styles. I must say, the short hair trend is really 'attacking' our community, not that it is a bad thing. However, I don't wanna be mean but... today, I saw a girl who I initially thought was pretty looking, she too had been 'attacked' by the current trend only to end up, not so good looking after all. I am mean by nature lah, what to do?!

So maybe it's a good thing to not follow the trend but more importantly to know what suits you best?! Well, hair grows back lah, so, maybe it's no harm to just like cut it all off and wait for it to grow again, but things like tattoos and I don't know, implants?! Those are just so out of the topic wei. I tersasar from my initial point but anyway... You get me right?! Yeah, so.

If I had a lot of power/money/authority, one thing I would do is ban smoking.
Smokers out there, you wanna commit suicide then you go die lah!
Don't shorten the lives of others!!

Ji a neh!!

Monday, November 12

Quick! Go check this out! *click*

Anyway, I'm kinda like in a dilemma right now.. To go or not to go and if I go, go on which?! I hate situations like this lah... Makes life so troublesome. If I go then I'm gonna have to re-schedule my individual oral presentation and I'll be missing the darn colloquium on the 24th because the race only ends then.

If I don't go, then my blardy every weekend training will go to some 'invisible charity organization' by the end of 2007. Plus some more, this time got invitation to sail will pro's wei... IRC 1 some more!

But then... sail on Panacea (one very slow, sure lose boat!!) can get the dem RYA cert. But have to sail with/tahan the org in charge of my Aus trip which tidak jadi, (you know what I mean right?). Very takde mood wanna sail with him lah, but then can get the cert lah...

Dad said sail on Panacea only, since can get the cert f.o.c and all. But I dunno lah...

How how how? Race starts this Sat leh, some more have to go club and train on Fri b4 the official race. Shitz lah.... HOW?!

What say you?

If you have yet to click on the above link, it's about RM5 AirAsia flights to Langkawi, traveling date from the 1 DEC 2007 - 30 April 2008. Promotion/booking only today! So, better scroll up and check it out now.

After which, please help me decide leh!! I would sincerely appreciate ur opinions...

Pleaaaasse?

Saturday, November 10

I left home without my phone... again. So, don't attempt to call or msg me lah, or you'll probably be left to wonder if 'Aili hates me hence she's not answering/replying'. No such thing.

Anyway, I'm now stuck at the club, though I can't seem to figure why I still bother. And apparently, I brought my lappie along with me so ta-da, here blogging I am. You know how fascinating things can be sometimes, can forget to bring phone but can remember to bring lappie.

Ah ha, finished Great Inheritance yesterday! I am spending way too much time on shows, like way way too much, but then again, not causing any harm to anyone also. Wah, I tell you, the kids really the dem dem cute lah! And talented. Sheesh. Why can't kids be cute in reality?! That's why people go drama watching lor...

Next drama, hm... I dunno, maybe will finish Time of Dog and Wolf starring Lee Jun Ki. It's was kinda draggy and all, hence the paused after Epi 3. Or maybe I should start with The Vineyard Man starring Yoon Eun Hye... The plot seems interesting. Hm...

Why is nobody doing the test <--- ?? Rajin a bit lah *NOT the sarcastic tone*!! Create account only. It looks very sad leh, nobody wanna do...

Thank you Mandy!!

Thursday, November 8

Was just playing around with my comp and happened to be a bit productive... So, here are some of the photos I wanted to upload the last round but couldn't...

Coronation Cup, Pattaya. 2007.

Langkawi with Boon Woei, Hui Ying & Sharon. 2007.

Seu & Heng, Phuket. 2007.
So the very cute of them right?!

My earring collection!
Cool right?!

I malas edi. Need to edit using power point and all... So much photos for today lah...! I know u are dying to see more, right?!

Anyway, I'm currently watching: Great Inheritance starring Kim Jae Won & Han Ji Min. I tell you, the children in the show are just oh-so-cute!! Omg. So very adorable, you have to believe me lah, *think!* this is coming from some anti-children person u know!

Backtodramawatching.

Tuesday, November 6

A break finally. An unofficial one though. Sighs.

Oh well, surprisingly, I'm kinda not as upset as I thought I would have been, or maybe I'm not as upset as I should have been. I guess it's just something that happened and perhaps it happened for the better, at least now I don't have to worry about missing all my long unanticipated lectures for two weeks, not like it'll make any difference anyway, blah.

I totally kenot tahan my 106 lecture lah!! It's like... I go in there knowing zero and come out knowing negative 8 (Just a random number). How lah am I gonna sit for the finals? How how how lah....???!!! So screwed man.

Min Huei's banana truffle or banana something was really good. Shucks, that man/boy/male?? can really cook/bake/whatever.. And yeah, so nice of him to actually bring it all the way from home. Touched. Thanks.

Was just told that I've got a wedding function to attend this Thurs. Mandy, Sharon & Liverpool Supporter, I terpaksa ffk u ppl. But I guess it's not really ffki-ing per say, cuz I'm actually telling u that I can't make it!! Hee~

This post is so messed up, in other words, all over the place lah. Maybe it's because my mind isn't functioning properly, brain malfunction. Aiseh, my neck still hurts.

Oh yes! Class canceled this Sat... * yeh yeh* Feel like going up some mountain for some fresh air over the weekend. Just a thought though. Damn cuz got training. Sometimes I wished I never sailed, but then again, it's... hm.. part of me?! what can I say.

I kenot possibly get any randomer.

Mantra of Green Tara;
Chantra of Green Tea.

Today, it does not end here!

Special dedication goes out to my very dear beloved Betsy Yeo Wai Li..

HAPPY HAPPY 21st, Woman!

God bless always :) Love ya!

Monday, November 5

Is today like the 'Everything Go Wrong' Day??

Cuz right...
  1. Betz kena accident, but she is safe, it's only her car!
  2. Mandy not feeling good.
  3. Mom's sick.
  4. Dad woke me up way before my alarm was awake.
  5. I felt horrible this morning, maybe due to lack of sleep.
  6. I think I may have accidentally sprained my neck a lil while asleep last night.
  7. I just got to know that my Aussie trip has been canceled.
  8. Heng differed his semester for no apparent reason now. (Seu too.) What the hell lah??
  9. I wonder what else can possibly go wrong...
Anyway, I'm not complaining. I'm just kinda upset. Feeling double upset for my bro. Shitz lah! Some more my MC100 group mates had to rush for the presentation because I 'couldn't make it' on Fri. Now I feel damn guilty... and upset.

whattheheck?!

Friday, November 2

Song currently playing on repeat mode on Winamp: Bay - Saturday Night.
I dunno, maybe it's just the music, it fits nicely with my mood. I dunno...


Anyway, I'm kinda 'affected' by Sharon's latest post. I have been wondering lately if I have been a good friend to my friends... I always thought that I was doing well, playing the 'I'm a good friend' role, I mean, I have always thought that though I can sometimes be a pain in the ass, I still always thought that I 'was' or at least 'was considered' as a good friend in the eyes of my friends... Again, lately, I haven't been too sure. Have I been really a good friend? Am I a friend my friends can count on? Am I your friend?


I don't know. Lately, I'm just not too sure myself.
This wasn't meant to be an emo post.
It was something I have been thinking about a lot lately and so, it kinda just came out that way.
I apologize.


To lighten up the mood a lil', I shall change the 'negative flow' into a more positive one...


Went to Pavillion today. WHO and just WHO said that that was a nice place?? The bloody parking is 1 buck per HALF hour ok!! How can that be nice?! Ok lah, the rich ppl versus the poor soul here, what can I possibly say?? *white flag* No more Pavillion for me.


I guess I didn't exactly lighten the mood did I?!


Second attempt! Went to Pavillion today. I like the Diva they have there compared to the one in MV. But I really think that's it. Considering I haven't received my allowance, this outing was just mere 'rubbing salt into my wound'. Ouch, very the pain.


Second attempt. Also fail!


Adui... Tell you what, since everything I write about today will probably end up making me, myself sound rather pathetic, I shall post up some photos which will at least do me some good...
Some pictures are quite ancient, mind you...


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Sorry... Photos just don't seem to be loading! Some other time maybe!


Kumen!

Thursday, November 1

Sharks...

Too many dramas, too little time.

Aw man!

Reminders (to self) :
Museum - 1 day.
* ahem* - 2 days.
106 Labbie - 4 days.
Deepavali - 6 days.
Aussie - 7 days.

Watashi wa bimbo des...!!!

Time to get some work done.

Loving green tea!

Why haven't I been posting, u ask?

No 1. It's no longer 'that new'...
No 2. Apart from deadlines / datelines (which is the correct one??), nothing much has happened since the past few days.
No 3. I've been crunchyrolling again! This time, 'Snow Queen'.

Just finished the whole episode. All Boon Woei's fault!

I tell you, if u feel like your eyes needs to dry up a little, Korean dramas really won't fail to make u cry. Taiwanese dramas make u feel all fluffy and cozy, but then, they are all pretty much, (no, correction) very unrealistic (currently watching: Ying Ye 3+1 & Romantic Princess).

K-dramas seem more realistic. But just why is it that Koreans seem to have more diseases and ends up dying more compared to the Chinese / Japanese? Atomic bomb also kena Japan, not Korea, why so many Koreans keep dying?! *Alamak, I'm starting to not make sense.*

Anyway, won't be giving out any spoilers. Still got people following the 8.30pm one. So, yeah lah, tiny spoiler: be prepared to cry.

K-drama = waste of tissue!